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I’ve delayed finishing the section of my course unit to update my blog. I’ve been struggling to find time aside from studying and sleeping to spend time doing these kinds of things, but I had the urge to write, instead of study, so here I am.

I am currently sitting in the middle of my sofa in my living room, with one dog asleep aside the chair, and another out for the count underneath my duvet which is placed next to me. I was going to snuggle up under it, but didn’t quite get that far. I am also listening to ‘Florence and the Machine’ through my laptop. I love the tone of her voice.

The past few days have just been, crazy. I’ve been wanting to update my diary/blog, but I’ve just not had the energy, and now I have the time to do it, the words just aren’t coming.

Some people ask how I manage to work, and at the moment, the answer would be ‘Because I have too’. At least, that was the reason to start with. It was a necessity, and, still is. Life doesn’t stop, money is always needed, from paying the rent and bills to eating and clothing myself. Even though needs must, it’s still so difficult.

On one hand I feel I’m managing everything that’s going on at the moment on an ‘ok’ level, but then, on the other hand, I feel I just can’t manage it all. I know it’s only been a matter of weeks, and my body is adjusting, it’s just taking it’s toll on me.

I get in from work, and go back to bed, then I still wake up and my body needs more sleep. I don’t know whether to sleep even longer, or whether to get up and push myself. I feel I’ve really had to push, as there isn’t any other option. It definitely makes me feel good though, knowing that the money that comes in to my account I earned with my own hard work. So, all in all, theres positives and negatives to it all.

As far as the plans for the future, things are actually looking bright. Or, I feel they are. Theres still so many unknowns, but what I do know, is that with the extra money I earn coming in to my account, it means we can start to plan (of sorts) for our future. Starting with a holiday.

I’ve only ever been abroad twice (I think. One of them as a baby, the other time to Spain with my family and I remember that, but was only young). It’s why it’s so exciting. There is so many places I’d love to visit, Amsterdam (The house where Anne Frank lived in in World War 2), and to Poland, to visit the Auschwitz grounds (I love history). Both Rich and I would also love to holiday in Parga, Greece as well.

I’ve never felt I was in the right situation to manage anything like that. I’ve never felt I could ‘Dream’ about what I wanted in the future, with being ill, and a bad financial situation. That’s why me finding work has changed a lot for me, it’s given me and Rich a future. I always new we had a future, I just didn’t think we’d be going down this path.

I saw my family the weekend gone. My mum, dad, and sister came up to Coventry for the day. I really had a great time. I loved being able to walk the dogs with them (something I’ve only really been able to manage recently, and maybe even that is because I’ve pushed myself). It was great fun. We had a great meal, and we even managed to shop. Rich gamed during the day as he wasn’t hugely feeling very well (both of us have been feeling fluy over the past month or so). A good day all around.

I know so many people are excited about the snow (changing the convocation), but it’s really starting to get to me. It restricts me so much! I cant really go out on my own, I’m not fully able to keep control of my car, and the office at work is so dam FREEZING! I always hated summer, and longed for the cold, but oh god, i cant take much more dam it!

For now, that is all. My life is so busy, working, studying, sleeping. I don’t always have time to update my blog as often as I’d like. I’m going to start up a written diary, which I can note down my thoughts in. I’ll then use to update my blog online. For now, adios.